FULL MOON IN CANCER

I wouldn't call what I have insomnia. I definitely find it harder to fall asleep around the Full Moon.   Prose runs through my mind and I let it run free: 

“It’s like they want you to be there without putting any work into keeping you around. Plants die if you don’t water them. Love fades if you don’t hold it. And they lie. They manipulate, you, such a good person being held on a string like a marionette. You are not free, yet you are not loved. I wonder if the golden cage they keep you in is locked or could you open the gates and walk out? Sometimes the best way to heal is to let go. Sometimes the worst thing you can do is stay in cold embraces. Somehow it’s warmer without their watchful eye and icy hands. Lovers, mothers, friends who have no space for you are ironically suffocating. Sometimes the best way to heal is to let go. 

So I let go. My oath to you is I let go of the pain you’ve caused and any future harm that you might bring. I allow you to be you. The cold, the heartless, the empty as you like to be. It is not in my control to change your ways and to be honest trying to change you was a little controlling. The Universe had made you the way you are for a reason. Maybe it was so I learn to draw the line in the sand, put a stop sign on your questionable behaviour, and tiptoe away from you into a good life. “ 

May you sleep well and have profound dreams during this Full Moon 🌕